I realized that I had fallen...

I left....

As I drove home, his words lingered in my head, all I could do was wish things were different. I made it home to lay in bed and had a desire to run back to him, to let him know that I wanted to be with him too.

The next morning came and I had slept maybe two hours max. I showered and got dressed and headed to the hotel, I picked up some strong coffee to help relieve him from however much alcohol he had drank that night. And then the inevitable happened, I drove him home....

I think one of the hardest things to do is watch someone you really care about go into a place where you know there is another woman waiting to receive him...as I drove away I realized..."I'm in love with him."




Two days passed and I had been avoiding him, and as much as I wanted to continue avoiding his calls and messages, it was time to see him in person. I got to class at the exact time that professor began the experiment for the day so that little time was allotted for him to make conversation, that was the day that I wanted to just finish my experiment as prompt as I could to get out of there and avoid him.

I rushed through my task, and handed in my assignment and stormed out of the classroom. As I approached my car, I heard my name, I didn't turn around hoping it could be anyone calling me, but I couldn't continue lying to myself, it was him. I turned around and he told me to please not avoid him, he asked me to give him an opportunity to clear up what had happened over the weekend.

"Bianca, I cant lie to you, I don't want to lie to you. I haven't been able to get you out of my head all weekend, you're in my every thought, in my dreams, your the first and last person I think about when I sleep. Do you understand that? Do you understand that I cannot control what I feel for you? Please say something to me, don't just stay quiet."

But thats just it...all I could do was stay quiet.

What was I supposed to do? After everything that I've been through with life and love, all I could wonder was why this was happening to me? Was this really how I was going to meet my dream guy? Could this be my prince charming, or was he going to destroy me like  every other heart breaker had done?