The roommate

I couldnt help but to be curious about what his roommate looked like. Mark never really gave me details on her. All he ever told me was that he wasnt with her...

I'm a female, it is in my nature to be suspicious and nosey...so here we go....

Mark had asked me to submit some papers for him at school so that he could get a spot in class he needed. I picked up the papers at his job and of course the envelope had the address on it, (YES, his home address).



I called my friend Lori and told her that I had the address, her being the great and nosey friend that she is came up with a brilliant idea.

YEP! You guessed it, WE drove to the house...

We parked on the corner of the street and grabbed a notebook from the trunk, we walked up to the house and rang the doorbell....


We knew someone was home because her car was parked outside (I knew her car because he had been driving it one day due to his car having issues). Supprisingly someone peaked through the curtain but never opened the door. Lori rang the doorbell again.

A woman opened the window by the door and rudely said, "Can I help you?"  I couldnt believe my eyes...there was no way this was the roomate, no way in hell.

I asked her if she could help us with an address that we were looking for and couldnt find.

"No"- she didnt want to help us.

I was persistant and asked why she couldnt just help us so she finally agreed. I made up an address in my head and said it to her, as she pondered, I observed every inch of her body.

She said, "Why dont you drive around to the next street, it might be there."

I said, "Thank you so much, I guess we'll look there, whats your name?"

and she replied, "Pam"

OMG THIS WAS THE ROOMMATE.

Lori and I rushed to the car and when we got in Lori asked a million questions, the first one was, "How old is she B?"

I had no idea how to answer to that question.

I stopped breathing, I couldnt believe this was the woman, I turned and looked at Lori and said, "I think shes in her 50's."

I realized that I had fallen...

I left....

As I drove home, his words lingered in my head, all I could do was wish things were different. I made it home to lay in bed and had a desire to run back to him, to let him know that I wanted to be with him too.

The next morning came and I had slept maybe two hours max. I showered and got dressed and headed to the hotel, I picked up some strong coffee to help relieve him from however much alcohol he had drank that night. And then the inevitable happened, I drove him home....

I think one of the hardest things to do is watch someone you really care about go into a place where you know there is another woman waiting to receive him...as I drove away I realized..."I'm in love with him."




Two days passed and I had been avoiding him, and as much as I wanted to continue avoiding his calls and messages, it was time to see him in person. I got to class at the exact time that professor began the experiment for the day so that little time was allotted for him to make conversation, that was the day that I wanted to just finish my experiment as prompt as I could to get out of there and avoid him.

I rushed through my task, and handed in my assignment and stormed out of the classroom. As I approached my car, I heard my name, I didn't turn around hoping it could be anyone calling me, but I couldn't continue lying to myself, it was him. I turned around and he told me to please not avoid him, he asked me to give him an opportunity to clear up what had happened over the weekend.

"Bianca, I cant lie to you, I don't want to lie to you. I haven't been able to get you out of my head all weekend, you're in my every thought, in my dreams, your the first and last person I think about when I sleep. Do you understand that? Do you understand that I cannot control what I feel for you? Please say something to me, don't just stay quiet."

But thats just it...all I could do was stay quiet.

What was I supposed to do? After everything that I've been through with life and love, all I could wonder was why this was happening to me? Was this really how I was going to meet my dream guy? Could this be my prince charming, or was he going to destroy me like  every other heart breaker had done?